Verbally abusive cheaters

They say you will know when you meet Mr Right because the chemistry will be off the chain. This is exactly how it was for me when I meet my future boyfriend in a Vegas bar where I was working. He made me feel amazing. He knew exactly what to say, he had the perfect job. He could dressed to kill, he was fun, and generous, and best of all, he said that I was the girl of his dreams. So naturally when he asked me to moving with him within two months, I said yes!
I didn’t quite understand why he was being mean to me when we lived together. I wrote it off to him having a bad day at work. When he seen that his words upset me, he would go to dramatic lengths to make it up to me – normally with expensive gifts, like my favorite shoes. I truly believed he was sorry, and was acting out of character. I couldn’t believe that’s such a successful and good looking guy, who could be such a sweet and loving boyfriend, could also be a hurtful and mean jerk.
But this guy turned into a crazy ass mean person. So much so that I was not sure if it was me who was losing it, and he was holding me together. For most of the time, I felt grateful I had him to “slap me back in line” – and tell me how to get my shit together. Whenever we seen a counselor, he would either hit on the counselor, or drop out, or completely lie. It was a huge waste of time.
I came home from work early, as I cut my hand on a glass at work, only to find – you guessed it – my “great” boyfriend in bed with my “Best friend.” I couldn’t believe it. I was so disgusted of myself on so many levels. All I could do was scream at both of them “how could you!” – before I grabbed my gym bag and ran from the house.
After over 12 years of putting up with his comments, I am DONE. Perhaps instead of me always trying to fix him I should look at myself & try to fix what’s wrong with me for surrounding myself with his negativity.
My other friends and family can’t understand what could he have said that is so bad! So I thought I would share something with the world to show you all what a crazy manipulator sounds like …..
Here are his last text messages to me after an argument on the phone…
Didn’t know there was a big market for flabby anorexic jersey cunts.
Oh… And dont worry… I expect nothing less from a slut stripper whore.
Dont forget to binge today.
Go call a girlfriend to bitch about me. Oh wait I forgot YOU DONT HAVE ANY
Stupid little jersey trash fuck you I wish for u nothing but pain sadness and misery
Keep enjoying ur pseudo life. Respected as a piece of meat.
You asked for it. Pick up the phone. Lets not end like this.
MY MOTHER IS DYING MARIA. MY EMOTIONS ARE TATTERED. THAT DOES NOT GIVE ME THE RIGHT TO LASH OUT SO HURTFULLY AGAINST YOU. I AM SORRY AND ASHAMED. GOODBYE MY OLD  LOVE.
Today is a new day and although I dont expect u will speak with me today or ever again, please just tell me u forgive me for my cruel words.
Hello Maria. I would like the opportunity for forgiveness. Please contact me bubby.
Seriously?
I didn’t respond to any of the text messages or answer his calls. I think I’ve realized that he has not changed much as far as his verbal abuse & I am not going to spend my life with someone who can continue after 12 years talk down to me like I am nothing… It’s exhausting in many ways…
Maria
Las Vegas, USA